Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Disappear


Another story I wrote. It's not really well edited, the themes in the story are good though, I'm just not sure if I explained it right.
Have fun reading :) (or not...)




I stood there, motionless, in front of my nastiest foe. This girl had ruined my life. I had first noticed her immerging from the shadows when I was thirteen. From then on she had been following me, making it her one true goal to transform me into her. She was successful. By fifteen she had me captivated by her charm, and I was her exact copy.
I eyed her furiously; every ounce of hatred was concentrated into my eyes. The anger and hatred I felt towards her was blazing like a fire that never dies. A fire that cannot be extinguished as easily as one might like. I wanted her gone. I wanted her out of my life; forever.
I looked at her up and down and shook my head in disgust. Her hair looked as if it had been sprayed with four cups of hairspray–totally fake. Her dark brown roots were visible above the artificial platinum blonde locks of hair. She had large purple shadows beneath her huge hazel eyes, along with thick layers of makeup on her eyelids. Her over-plucked eyebrows were furrowed; a confused expression hung onto her sickening face. This despicable girl sickened me. I wished her to the fiery gates of Hades, but my wish had not been granted.
I glared at her fiercely, and to my surprise, she mimicked my action. I became overwhelmed with anger. For all these years, she’d been luring me into her sick trap, trying to get me to become her, and now that I had more power over her, she was copying my every action. “Go Away!” I shrieked, clenching my fists into tight balls. “I hate you!”
She bit her gloss-covered lip extremely hard that even I could imagine feeling the physical pain. Her eyebrows were grooved upward now, no long looking angry. She had a pained expression on her face. Good. I closed my eyes, breathing deeply and smiled smugly. I wanted her to feel every bit of regret as possible. I slowly opened my eyes, and to my dismay, she did not leave. She stood there in front of me, gazing upon me with sudden curiousness. Frustration washed through my body and seemed to stick to me like a magnet. I suddenly felt angrier than before. “Get Away!” I hissed. She did not budge. The only movement I saw from her was her chest going up and down, breathing heavily. Then, a tear appeared through the corner of her right eye, and it dripped slowly down her pink blushed cheeks, smudging her foundation and whatever other face makeup she wore to make herself further plastic. I felt triumphant for a moment, but all that victory evaded me. She still hadn’t budged. “Go. Away” I snapped again, my voice broke. I did not feel the tears though; I was too angry and frustrated to cry. Instead, my words were merely tearless sobs. I didn’t want her to feel the satisfaction of making me sob, but I wasn’t the one with tears dripping treacherously down my face. Or maybe I was crying, but I was too distracted by her presence to notice. “Why are you even here? NO ONE wants you here! If you don’t get out I swear I’ll get rid of you… my way!” I threatened. The girl did not move a muscle. Not that she had any. She was too skinny, a skeleton. Her brows furrowed, and I watched her intently as three moist tears flowed down her soft pink cheek. I did not understand; no matter how many times I slammed threatening and hurtful words into her face, she would not move. Sometimes I wondered if the words and threats I spat, hurt me more than they hurt her… She remained unmoving as more liquid drops flowed out of her sparkling hazel eyes. For a minute, I felt compassion for this girl, but all that sense of empathy quickly vanished as quickly as a heartbeat. She had ruined my life too immensely to be forgiven.
She gazed into my eyes, hers were wide with confusion. I watched as the pure clear tears became contaminated with smearing mascara. Black tears were streaming down her completely flushed face. Revolted, I turned my gaze away from her and focused on the ground I was standing on.
“You’re nothing but a fake… you know that?” I whispered, for that was as loud as my voice was letting me go. Something was blocking my voice from becoming louder. I coughed to try and get whatever it was out, but I was unsuccessful. I couldn’t breathe. And that’s when I realized that I was also crying. Horrified, I tried my best to swallow my tears back, to keep a straight face, but it was impossible. The tears began to pour out, and I heard myself gulp for air. I brusquely swallowed my last sob; I couldn’t let this monster win. I couldn’t let her have the satisfaction of making me cry. I was stronger than that.
“G-g-go A-away!” I wailed. I turned to glance at her again, and she too was crying more prominently. She stayed quiet the whole time. Her face was now almost fully covered in watered-down black tears. Nevertheless, mo matter how much I had upset her, she wouldn’t budge. She merely stood there in front of me, crying. She had a pleading expression on her face, as if begging me not to banish her.
That’s when the surge of anger zoomed through me like an electric flow. For all these years, she had been so manipulative, so evil. And now she was pleading me to spare her. I wanted to kill her right there, but I couldn’t bring myself to do it; not yet.
I tried to focus on her ugly unclean face. Her hazel eyes were completely bordered with smudged black makeup. Her cheeks were a bright shade of red. Her face was exactly that of a person who had been crying for a long period of time. Her shirt was unsightly and unoriginal. Everyone had one like it, all the girls like her. She wore a short skirt, much too short. I wanted to rip it off and wave it in front of her, but I didn’t.
“…Whore.” I muttered heatedly, jerking my gaze away from her in disgust. This human monster revolted me to the point that I thought I was going to throw up.
As my tears subsided and my anger grew more prominent, she copied me again. She pulled herself together. The tears were still all over her soft red cheeks, but she did not allow any more of the traitor liquid to seep out of her eyes. I glared at the girl with more hatred and fury than before. She was better prepared for my furious stare than I had expected and hoped. She too, glared at me with the same hatred. But then, to my victory, her angry expression faded and was replaced by that pained look that I knew all too well. I laughed to myself smugly. My eyes gleamed in triumph, widening. The girl still looked pained however, not angry. She bit her soft lip, all the gloss had disappeared along with the rest of her makeup. Her mouth opened and twitched. I knew she was about to start sulking. I could feel it. I don’t know how this sudden feeling came about, but I could feel her pain. For a moment I could feel everything she was feeling. All the frustration, all the anguish, all the hatred. Her teeth sunk deeper into the soft pink lips and her eyebrows furrowed until I thought it would cause a permanent wrinkle. A huge tear emerged out of her right eye and dripped slowly down her face.
She opened her mouth, I knew she was about to weep, and I couldn’t let that happen. The sounds of her sobs would irritate me further, and I would do something completely irrelevant. But then I had a sudden change of heart. Before the sound had a chance to escape her quivering lips, I looked at her with a sudden eagerness in my eyes. I could feel the anticipation building up inside of me, just waiting to escape–no­–to explode.
“I’ll kill you” I whispered calmly, and lurched myself at the girl. I slammed violently into the mirror, and it shattered into a million tiny pieces.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Beautiful Stalker

I've written a short story, I may leave it at that, or I may change the ending and continue it. I'm not to sure a the moment though. And also, I'd like to point out that it's very rough. No editting at all


Beautiful Stalker


I waited eagerly at my second story bedroom window. The full moon was exceptionally bright tonight and the moonlight shone into my dark room, creating glimpses of perfect white on my cream coloured blankets. My bed was placed under the window, creating a comfortable sitting area as I waited, peering out the open window, searching for him.
***
He had come every night for the past two weeks. I had first noticed him perching on the thick tree branch of the large oak beside my window while I was examining the stars, trying to define the little dipper. I had not flinched away when I saw him. I hadn’t run down the cold hard-wood stairs to my father, who was watching television that night, to tell him there was a strange boy looking into my second story room from our old oak tree. I stood still, eyeing the strange boy who was watching me. We looked into each others’ eyes for a fair amount of time, as if deciphering each others’ thoughts during the process. Then, as suddenly as he appeared, he would vanish, and I was free to fall into a deep slumber, dreaming of the strange boy.
It persisted like this for the past two weeks, nothing changing. We would not say a word to each other, we would not touch. He kept his distance, staying perched on the branch, never moving. He was like a statue on the old tree. The only part of his body that moved was his mysterious dark eyes, keeping them locked onto mine. Even in the night, I could tell that his eyes were not blue, nor green. They were either a dark brown or maybe pure black for all I knew.
***

I looked away for a moment, examining my white alarm clock that lay motionless on my dark bedside table. It was eleven thirty. He was sure to come at any minute now. My head swiftly snapped back toward the open window, and he was there, as still as a statue, perched on the thick branch closest to my window.
The moonlight shone on his pale skin, tonight he truly looked like a statue. The strange boy resembled an angel. His face was fiercely beautiful. His cheekbones were high and defined, but not in a skeletal way. His body was also one of a perfect being–he was very slim, but he had defined muscles. They didn’t bulge out so disgustingly as if he were on steroids. They were perfect. One of his legs was crossed, and the other one was bent upward so that his chin rested upon his knee. He was staring at me intently, never taking his sparkling dark eyes off of me. His dark eyes contrasted significantly with his pale–almost white–skin. A slight breeze blew around him, ruffling his already-untidy brown-gold hair. Although his hair was untidy, it still looked perfect. It was cut shorter at the sides and gradually got a bit longer as it reached the top. The breeze lead its’ way to my open window and onto my face, a sweet smell filled my nostrils. It didn’t smell like cologne though, not so artificial. It smelled something in between lilac and honey. The movement in the air would have tousled my dark brown hair around my face, but luckily I was wearing French braids. The breeze only affected my side bangs which hung loosely at the left side of my heart-shaped face.
I took a deep whiff of the air once more; the sweet aroma was still present. I exhaled loudly; he was still examining me thoroughly. Every night he would come here and watch me, as I would watch him. It was always the same routine, I wanted to change it.
I poked my head out the window into the chilly air. For the first time ever, I witnessed him move. He backed away, but only slightly so it was barely even noticeable. He didn’t take his eyes off of mine however. Every time he looked into my eyes, it seemed like he was searching for something. He always had an intent look on his face as he watched me, as if he were examining something through a magnifying glass.
To my surprise, he suddenly appeared closer to me. He was so quick that I hadn’t even noticed him move. He was at the edge of the thick branch; his body was merely two feet away from my face. He stared into my eyes, and then the right side of his mouth pulled up into a smile. I was dazed by this godlike creature. For once his expression wasn’t serious, it was…happy. His simple half smile sent my heart into a frenzy of loud thumps. I could feel the speed of it doubling almost instantly. He swiftly raised his hand and motioned with his finger for me to come out. It was almost seductive, or maybe I was imagining that part. I was dazed; all I could do was obey the angel that had so mysteriously entered my life. I knew I should have been frightened, but the fear was overruled with electricity that raced through my body telling me to go to the strange boy. He reached out this time; his long slender hands were ready to catch me. I cautiously climbed out of my window, and before I knew it, I was in the creatures’ cold arms. He cradled me against his muscular chest; it was hard as a rock, and his whole body was the temperature of the cold air surrounding us. Maybe he was a statue after all.
He pulled the elastics out of my hair, leaving my braids untied. He ran his cold fingers through my hair, separating the braids. I started breathing more heavily; I could feel my heart exhilarating. He rested his soft full lips on my hair, and I heard him inhale. Then he turned me slightly, so that I was facing him. He pulled me closer. The tighter I was pressed against this cold stone creature, the warmer I felt. “What’s your name?” he whispered into my ear. Even though his voice was a mere whisper, it sounded perfect. “Tatiana…” I answered, still dazed at how perfect he seemed.
He inhaled into my hair, and sighed. “You have a lovely name” he whispered as he brushed his lips down my head toward my jaw, his voice still as velvety and perfect as it had been a few seconds ago. I rush of adrenaline went through my body as his soft lips came closer to mine. It seemed that his lips were the only soft part of his body. They lightly brushed around my jaw, to the bottom of my ear, to my throat. I heard him sigh again. As I was about to wrap my arms around this creature, a sharp pain pierced at my neck. His teeth were still burrowed into my throat as I slipped into unconsciousness.

obsessed

obsession n. 1 the act of obsessing or the state of being obsessed.
2 a persistent idea or thought dominating a person's mind